bläh.bläh.bläh

ok, i am over the phase, where i feel sorry for myself, cause i was very drunk some nights ago.
next step.
where did all this conflict come from? inside and outside and inbetween and everywhere. Where did all the harmony go? Never would have said about myself that I need harmony, but apparently I do. And I am also not very good at managing conflicts at the moment. They sort of come over me, and I am more an passive object just flowing on the sublte emotions. And I am not very keen on that.
But, I have to admit. Wonderful sunday.

-walking aroun with eva, who wore a yellow hat, I wore a blue one
- going to an exhebition about angels in vienna
- visiting Zentralfriedhof (which I wanted to do ever since I moved here)
- eating typical Austrian food
- pretending to be a family with children and doing exactly the things I would do, if I was in that situation
- not questioning my future for once

so, not so bad all together. I just dont know where this strange unsatisfied notion inside myself comes from. Very strange.
But okay. new week. new chance. changes.
at least i am over the fact that in a situation like this i would cut my hair. am I?
BLÄH, LIFE THIS IS FOR YOU, BLÄH.