bläh.bläh.bläh

ok, i am over the phase, where i feel sorry for myself, cause i was very drunk some nights ago.
next step.
where did all this conflict come from? inside and outside and inbetween and everywhere. Where did all the harmony go? Never would have said about myself that I need harmony, but apparently I do. And I am also not very good at managing conflicts at the moment. They sort of come over me, and I am more an passive object just flowing on the sublte emotions. And I am not very keen on that.
But, I have to admit. Wonderful sunday.

-walking aroun with eva, who wore a yellow hat, I wore a blue one
- going to an exhebition about angels in vienna
- visiting Zentralfriedhof (which I wanted to do ever since I moved here)
- eating typical Austrian food
- pretending to be a family with children and doing exactly the things I would do, if I was in that situation
- not questioning my future for once

so, not so bad all together. I just dont know where this strange unsatisfied notion inside myself comes from. Very strange.
But okay. new week. new chance. changes.
at least i am over the fact that in a situation like this i would cut my hair. am I?
BLÄH, LIFE THIS IS FOR YOU, BLÄH.

you.me.and everyone else i kissed

drunk night out. having fun with friends. playing a drinking game. drinking too much. driving around vienna with taxi. spending a lot of money. first snow and first time high heels on. kissed one of my oldest friends. felt quite nice. can hardly remeber it. would like to talk about it. didnt manage to. still sort of blurry and drunk. need to sleep. too lazy to go to bed. too confused about the same story repeating itself over and over again. andi was right. do i really need to bring graz to vienna. these are things i normally dont do in vienna. cause i dont go out here.
very happy about my new working board. YEAH, more to do lists.
university started. at least the text production field. not really motivated yet. but hopefully soon will be.
found out, there is a really nice girl which is also named anna blume. dont really like that.
my appartment is still very white and clean. maybe should add some colour.
not sure what i am writing here.

i dont think there are many of my friends i havent kissed yet.
t.b.s.m.a.j...... congratulations.